The average 10 year old has a simple but great life. Goes to school, fools around, plays with friends, no responsibilities and consumes sugar like there's no tomorrow. This is what we generally expect from a child right? However, I was a little different. I'd do all the general stuff stated above and more, but, I had a habit of looking at the bigger picture. Don't get me wrong, I wanted to be a Power Ranger when I was big enough, specifically blue if you was wondering. Crazily, I just knew this was not my ultimate purpose. I'd like to question things a lot:
"what happens when we die?",
"where did everything around us come from?",
"why am I here?" and so on and so forth, you get the gist.
Coming from a non-Muslim family, this was not the norm, but may seem expected in an Islamic community. These questions I had, I never shared them with my family, I just kept them to myself. I remember I had a friend, his name was Christian and sometimes I would wind-him-up telling him, "one day we will die and the whole earth will come to an end". His eyes would tear up every time I mentioned such statements, his mind could not comprehend such reality. He would cover his ears because he didn't want to hear it. I know its a harsh thing to do, I was just hoping I'd react the same way. Why was I so relaxed about such speech and why didn't I worry like him. Surely at a young age, you'd become very scared to be away from your family. This whole situation may seem minor to you. But for me, it makes me very curious. Now that I think back, I can connect all the dots and this is where the journey stems from. Further more will be clarified in my next blog. I talk about my family's beliefs and my position towards it as a child/young teenager.
By the way, my mind-set was not like this everyday, just the certain moments I had at random times which I can't explain. Otherwise, I was training to become the greatest Power Ranger ever.
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